Baby weight = depression

I have been feeling depressed this week, due to the fact that i look TERRIBLE. I know it's only been two months but I know I am very overweight now since having my second baby. I can't seem to look good in anything I wear and my mum keeps telling me she thinks im bigger than her *sigh* it's so depressing when people around you keep telling you that you are bigger than before..in my case ALOT bigger! I have been thinking about joining the gym to try and shake some weight off me but as i stepped on a scale today I realized I have gained more than 26 kilos with my second baby. Why oh why has my body turned against me?! Why can't my body realize that I want to get rid of the weight when my baby is born??! Arhh so frustrating!! I can't believe I gained soo much weight when my baby was only 2.725kg when she was born! How unfair is that?! I could have at least had a bigger baby!!! huhuhuhu im so sad now =(

Hello World !!

As you all know I haven't been posting for a long while due to not having internet connection (haha who can live without internet nowadays?! obviously me!! lol) and also being that I was pregnant just made things a whole lot more difficult to do especially with an energetic 3 year old on hand.

So anyway I finally had my baby !! I was glad to finally have it over..I swear if it went on any longer I would've gone insane !! My baby was born 10 days early from the due date because the doctors who took care of me decided it would be better for my sake and the babys if they induced me. They did however make me suffer before finally inducing me. I was in and out of hospital and also had to stay for few days due to my high blood pressure and they didn't want to "risk" anything with me as I had sever pre-eclampsia with my first born. Driving back and forth to hospital was starting to get at me not only was the parking TERRIBLE, the drive was excruciating as it took 40 mins just to get there. Imagine having to go through all that effort 3 times a week with a 3 year old !!! I was exhausted !!

At last it happened, on July 20, 2010 my baby girl Mikeila Jade was born weighing 2.725 kg. I was so lucky to have such an easy labour the second time around !!